Castiel x demon!reader ~ Songfic ~ Counting stars

Counting stars ~ one republic

you smirked lightly at the angel before you, petting his head.

"You know what I am...Why haven't you killed me yet...?"

Castiel looked up to you, your hand falling to his cheek.
He instinctively nuzzled your hand, and placed his hands on yours.

"Dean tells me it's love."

You scoffed, taking your hand off of him.

"You can't love me. Won't your father get mad at you?"

He nodded his head, "probably, but I can help you."

You tilted your head, "how so?"

"You want a purpose, yes?"

You stayed quiet before nodding, more to yourself then Castiel.

"Your purpose is to help Sam and Dean Winchester with me."

You let out a loud laugh, "I already knew that!"

He looked at you seriously, "help guide them to their destiny."

You stopped laughing and looked at him with your eyebrow raised, "you're joking."

Castiel shook his head, no.

"They wont know you're a demon, and your purpose will keep you on track."

"My purpose will be the death of me."

"I'll protect you."

You smirked again, "ya, while i'm saving your ass."

"Does that mean you will join us?"

You stayed silent before wrapping your arms around his neck lazily and bringing your face closer to him.

"Want to make a deal?"

He looked into your (e/c) eyes and then your lips, "your terms?"

"No lies. You tell me everything. I will keep the same promise, and my loyalty lies with you."

He looked back into your eyes before kissing you lightly.

~*~
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Yeah, we'll be counting stars
~*~

Soon after, Castiel had shown you to Sam and Dean, they trusted him when he said you were an angel.

"Heh...Idiots..." You mumbled under your breath before looking up at the brothers.

"Her name is ___________, she recently had received her grace back, so she wishes to be called by her human name."

Sam looked you over before his eyes fell upon your right hand, you were holding Castiel's hand.

"Are you guys...?"

"Yes." Castiel squeezed your hand before you could protest.

You looked at Sam before nodding, "seems like it."

Dean furrowed his eyebrows, before glaring at you slightly, "beer?"

"No thanks, don't drink."

You knew better than to except a beer from hunters, especially when they give you a look like that.

He nodded before holding his hand out to you, "Dean."

You raised a eyebrow at him, "we're going over introductions again?"

You looked over his hand, noticing the small liquid traveling down it.

You tried to suppress your laugh, you really did.

"Do you really not trust me?"

He nodded his head, "I learned the hard way that angel's and demon's are dicks...But demon's are super dicks."

You stopped laughing, rolling your eyes, "I don't know whats more insulting, you calling me a dick, or a demon. I'll go with demon."

Dean narrowed his eyes more, walking to one of the motel beds and pulling out a jug of holy water.

You looked at him quizzically, "wow."

He handed it to you, "there's salt in there too, have a sip, darling."

Castiel couldn't help but panic a little, and the knot in his stomach when Dean called you darling wasn't helping.

"Dean. That's enough." Cas was obviously angry, you could hear it in his voice.

~*~
I see this life
Like a swinging vine
Swing my heart across the line
In my face is flashing signs
Seek it out and ye shall find
~*~

Dean looked at Castiel, slightly taken back, "why are you sticking up for her if there's nothing wrong?"

You scoffed, quickly taking the jug, "just shut up already."

You twisted the bottle cap off before bringing the jug to your lips lightly.

Castiel went to take the bottle from you but you turned taking a small gulp of it in your mouth and swallowing it.

The water instantly burned in your mouth, you tried you best to drink it, and stay quiet.

You could hear the sizzling as it traveled down your throat.

Dean stared at you, surprised.

~*~
Old, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
And I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
~*~

Castiel took the jug away from you quickly, glaring at Dean, "leave her be."

Sam couldn't help but grab your face and open your mouth to look into it.

Your mouth was torched, steam still fell from it, and you could hear the slight sizzle.

Sam looked at Castiel, slightly mad as he released you.

You stayed silent, afraid to talk while you were in pain.

"Cas, why?" Sam looked pained as he continued to look at Castiel.

Castiel looked up at him, "she's the one I talked about with Dean."

Dean instantly scoffed, "you fell in love with a demon?! That's low Cas...Really low..."

You actually felt quite hurt by his statement, but pushed it off.

Sam looked down, he was hurt by his comment too.

Dean looked over at Sam, "really low..."

He snapped his attention back to Castiel, "I don't want another Ruby."

Castiel pressed his fingers to your temple, your esophagus felt much better, and the burning sensation was gone.

"Thanks..." You breathed out as you looked over at him.

Castiel gave you the smallest of smiles before turning back to Dean, "I am not Sam, and she is not Ruby."

Sam looked at Castiel, surprised, he was never this cold to him, well, usually.

Dean growled, "what makes you so sure?!"

"We made a deal."

~*~
I feel something so right
Doing the wrong thing
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive
~*~

Dean's eyes widen, "what did you do?!"

You couldn't help but get a little annoyed, "listen, I know you don't trust me. I know you feel betrayed by Castiel right now. I'm just here to help. I'm here to help Castiel. Not you. Not Sam. Castiel."

Everyone's eyes were on you, and Dean gave you a scowl, "I don't need your help, Sam doesn't need your help, and neither does Cas."

You huffed, "fine, kill me, use your little knife and kill me. This vessel is a dead girl anyways, so, you're not really killing anyone."

Sam immediately pressed his hand on Dean's chest, telling him to stop.

"You're using a dead meat suit?"

You nodded, "ya, I don't like possessing people, they just whine alllllll day and night, it's no fun."

Sam turned to Dean, "let her live."

Castiel stood in front of you protectively, "if she dies, i'm leaving. For good. Do you understand that? If you kill her. No more."

You raised your eyebrow and latched your arms around his torso, "over protective. Sexy."

Castiel felt heat travel up to his face, but he instantly shook it off.

Dean walked away, opening a beer up for himself then drinking it, "fine..."

Castiel stayed in front of you and looked at Sam.

He gave Castiel a nod and Cas moved away from in front of you.

~*~
Lately I been,
I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars
~*~

A couple months passed, and the four of you were on a mission.

"I have to get these idjits out of everything..." You mumbled to yourself then furrowed your brows.

'great...I'm developing the old man's speech...' You mentally slapped yourself as you climbed up on the old rusty pipes.

You scanned the area and continued crawling.

You stayed quite as you spotted Sam and Dean tied up.

You rolled your eyes, noticing the demon patrolling them.

You smirked and sat on the old pipe line.

You took out your gun, and put on the silencer.

You made your own cult...Except...You know...It was a bit bigger...

You licked your lips in anticipation and aimed at a demon out of view from the others.

You took the shot, and the now lifeless body fell to the ground.

You lowered the gun and watched for awhile, choosing another victim and shooting him.

Eventually, you killed all of them.

You crawled to the pipe over them and lowered yourself down, giving the brothers a little scare.

"Miss me?" You gave the brothers a kiss on the cheek and untied them quickly.

Sam quickly hugged your form tightly, "I thought they got you."

You pushed him off of you, "they always go for me first, you know that."

You started climbing the rusty pipes again and gave them a little wave, "i'm getting Cas, go and kill the munster."

Dean rolled his eyes, "would it kill you to actually say monster?"

You nodded, "yes."

Dean rolled his eyes again, and waved his hand before leaving with Sam.

You quickly crawled on the pipes, trying to find Castiel.

When you did, you were horrified.
That really said something, since, you know, demon.

You quickly brought out your gun, shooting all the demons carelessly and jumping down.

"Cas!" You yelled, falling to your knees and holding him close to you.

You had found him on the ground, in a puddle of his own blood. He was bleeding from practically everywhere.

There was a gash in his stomach, his ears were bleeding, his nose too.

His elbow was snapped the wrong way, one leg extended more then the other.

"Come on Cas! Open your pretty little eyes!"

Castiel kept his eyes closed, his chest slowly rising and slowly falling, "I....I-Its....I-It's Ji-imm....It's Jimmy..."

You couldn't help but get emotional over the new found information.

The tears fell from your eyes, slowly scaring your vessels face.

You held Jimmy closer, "It's ok...You're not dying yet..."

~*~
I feel the love
And I feel it burn
Down this river every turn
Hope is a four letter word
Make that money
Watch it burn
~*~

Jimmy gave you a small smile, "i'm dying..."

You shook your head, "no! You're not!"

You heard foot steps coming closer to you, "Sam! Dean!"

The door quickly opened, and you could see the panic in Sam's eyes, "___________! Back away fr-"

Before Sam could finish, Jimmy's hand had attached to your neck roughly.

You took a sharp breath in, looking over at Jimmy.

His eyes were pitched black, his lips in a crooked smile, "Hello there, ______________. You've been a very bad girl...Very bad..."

Your eyes widened, "W-Who..."

The boys rushed to your aid, but were smacked into a near by wall, "tsk, tsk boys..."

The demon turned his attention back to you and smirked, "why, i'm actually quite new to this business...But...Might I say...You have quite a bounty on your head little Missy..."

You quickly swatted his hand away, and you took a sharp breath in.

"You're an idiot then..."

You looked up at the new demon, your own eyes black.

You thought carefully on what to do next, you couldn't use any of your weapons, it would kill Jimmy.

You had no other choice...

"Exorcizamus te, omnis immundus spiritus, omnis satanica potestas, omnis incursio infernalis adversarii, omnis legio, omnis congregatio et secta diabolica..."

Black smoke began to flood from the both of you, and Sam and Dean dropped.

The demon smirked, "either way...I get the reward."

You smirked back, "ya, maybe...That is till I get out again...Then its your ass on the chopping block..."

Dean and Sam stared at the two of you, astonished.

"______________, what are you doing?!" Dean yelled, not moving a inch.

"What's it look like i'm doing?!"

Dean scowled as you continued the exorcism.

You eventually couldn't finish it, and Sam ended up cleaning up the mess.

Your vessel and Jimmy automatically dropped, and Sam and Dean scurried to Jimmy, immediately taking him to a hospital.

~*~
Old, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
And I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told
~*~

You ended up saving Jimmy.

If only you could say the same for yourself.

You were attached to chains, slowly getting ripped apart.

Alastair smiled, grabbing a jug of holy water, "so I heard you like this stuff..."

You gulped, "it doesn't taste that bad...You know...Except the side effects..."

Alastair began to pour the water onto your open wounds, laughing sadistically when he heard your screams and the sizzling.

The pain was worse as he piled on the salt, "You sure do enjoy human food aswell, right? Human food does involve a lot of salt..."

You wanted to flip him off, and you could, considering that was the only to fingers you had left on either hand.

He laughed, something deep from his chest, genuine.

"Aw, my little darling..."

He slowly petted your blood-matter hair, bringing his hand down to pet your bruised, and bleeding cheek.

"Beautiful."

You glared, thinking of something horrible to say, but, you couldn't lie.

You sighed, "my loyalty lies with Castiel. I owe you nothing."

~*~
And I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly
~*~

You smirked up at him, seeing his face turn sour.

He raised his hand, bringing his hand down crashing on your face, jerking it to the side and ripping your flesh into the sharp surroundings.

You yelled out, jerking your head back up, only to have holy water and salt poured onto your body.

You were in so much pain, you didn't even notice that you had started asking Castiel for help.

You've never done that.

You had relied on someone else other than yourself.

Alastair smiled down at you, "paaaaathetic."

You sniffled, "what does that make you then?"

He brought up his hand again, and all you could do was stare at him, "I could never love you. How could anyone ever love you."

He scowled, his hand crashing down again, "you know nothing!"

You only smiled, the spikes ripping at your usually soft skin, "I'm not aloud to lie...It's in the contract..."

He frowned, and then a smile fell upon his lips.

"Do you like this angel of yours?"

You stopped all your movements, you couldn't answer that question. Did you like Castiel?

His smile turned to a smirk as he continued, "I might have to cut your heart out and mail it upstairs?"

You looked up at him again, then closed your eyes, "do your best."

He walked up to you again, "i'm just getting started..."

~*~
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars
~*~

You had at least died over a hundred times now, over and over.

Different ways.

Ways you would never expect you could even die from.

"So, tell me, do you love Castiel?"

You would lick your lips, if you had a tongue.

You would answer too.

He quickly slit your throat, killing you again, only to reappear in one piece.

You went to say no, but nothing came out.

Why couldn't you say no?

He seemed to catch on, by the look of your face.

"Try saying yes, sweetheart..." He moved the blade across your cheek.

You tried saying yes, but again, nothing happened.

He growled, "do you honestly not know, you fool!"

He grabbed a scalpel, dipped it in the holy salt water then walked over to you.

You smirked, "getting sloppy, you already did that."

He smiled down at you, "but did you eat it?"

Your face stayed in a smirk, but your stomach immediately turned in disgust, "no."

He proceeded to pull your eye out of your socket, the pain more than a little painful.

You were surprised when he ripped out the other one.

Even more surprised when you heard the doors slam open.

"Kill her." You heard a man with a accent, and you attempted to hide your smile.

Alastair made you choke on your own eyes, reappearing as good as new five seconds later.

"________." Crowley smiled.

"Crowley." You replied.

"I believe you made a deal, and you being here is breaking it."

You raised one of your eyebrow, "yes..."

"Then why are you still here?" He barked, taking you off the chains quickly, fixing you up.

"I can't have my business being ruined because you didn't do your job!"

He smacked you roughly before Alastair growled, "she has a bounty! You can't just do this!"

Crowley snarled, turning to him, "are you in charge, dimwit?"

Alastair scowled, before running off.

Crowley turned to you, "get going!"

~*~
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons I learned
~*~

You took a sharp, long breath of air.

Releasing it slowly, you smirked, "air. Sweet, sweet air!"

You twirled around in your dead meat suit and set off to find Castiel.

You found him quickly, well, more like he found you.

You were attacked with a kiss on your lips.

A harsh, sloppy kiss.

You smirked, eagerly kissing the angel back, wrapping your arms around his neck.

He wrapped his arms around your waist and deepened the kiss.

You laughed, "getting your hands dirty?"

He only grabbed you by your wrist, dragging you to an abandoned warehouse.

You looked around, "Cast-"

He roughly turned you to him, kissing you harshly before pushing you into the old rusty wall.

You smirked again, letting his hands roam freely.

He tore off your leather jacket, ripping through your shirt.

His hands running down your torso.

There was a spark in his eyes, one that you've never seen before.

You took off his clothing for him delicately while he had trouble with your pants.

You smirked again, this is going to be fun.

~*~
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive
~*~

You actually slept in the arms of an angel.

How weird.

You've never slept before, did it really take that much energy out of you?

Well, you did sleep with an angel...

You turned to your right, seeing his almost bare form.

At least he had the decency to put his pants on and hand you your undergarments.

You yawned, going to get up before a certain angel's arms wrapped around your waist.

You raised your brow, turning to him.

"Where are you going?"

You shrugged, and he gave you a weird look.

"Don't leave me."

You were a little surprised by his words but nodded, "just let me put on the clothing you didn't destroy."

He looked around, the shredded pieces of your shirt on the ground.

He nodded and you grabbed your pants and leather jacket, slipping them on.

Castiel then grabbed you, pushing you into his chest.

Your hands were pressed against his torso, your legs tangled with his.

"Shouldn't we be with the Winchesters?"

"Didn't you see the Impala outside?"

You immediately froze, they...Were...Outside...Right now?

"Castiel!"

He looked down at you, "what?"

"Put on your clothes, we're going, right now!" You scowled.

Castiel frowned slightly, putting on his clothes.

You got up, and Castiel held you from behind, "I love you, ___________."

You scoffed, "well, sorry to break it to you angel but I don't-"

You couldn't finish your sentence. You couldn't say you didn't love him.

"I don't-"

You couldn't finish that either, you couldn't say that you didn't know.

"I love you too."

You surprised yourself, actually a little scared.

Could you even love anymore? Apparently.

~*~
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be counting stars
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars
~*~

Castiel smiled sadly at you, kissing you again, passionately.

You returned it quickly, still in shock.

He walked out the door, and you went after him, but stopped suddenly.

You were confused, and you tried again, but you couldn't.

You looked around, then looked up, a devil's trap.

You looked back at the door, gasping.

You mouth hanged opened, Dean and Sam walking in.

Dean looked at you in disgust while Sam looked at you apologetically.

Your vision blurred, "no-no-no-no-no!"

You slammed your hand against the invisible wall.

"CASTIEL! YOU DIRTY LYING CHEATER!"

You cried, falling to your knee's in defeat.

You could see him sitting in the Impala, his head hanging, his hands to his face.

You had trouble breathing, "I LOVED YOU!"

Sam seemed taken back, and Dean only scowled, "shut up! All you things ever do is lie!"

You looked at Dean, shaking your head, your hands in fists, "I. Can't. Lie."

Dean raised a brow and Sam dropped the demon killing knife, running outside.

"It was in my contract." You finished.

"JUST LIKE MY LOYALTY!"

You gulped down your sob, "WE WERE SUPPOSE TO PROTECT EACH OTHER!"

You breathed heavily, turning to Dean, "do it. Kill me. Dare you."

Dean glared at you, "I was planning on it."

You crossed your arms, "I can't kill you anyways."

He smirked at you, advancing.

"I don't want to anyways."

Dean stopped walking, and you looked at the devil's trap before turning back to him.

He looked at you seriously, "stop lying!"

You frowned, "just. Stab. Me. Already."

You sniffled, looking at Castiel one last time, "I don't want to live in a place WHERE THE PERSON I LOVED HAS BETRAYED ME!"

You turned back to Dean, the pain searing through your body.

~*~
Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons I learned
~*~

Sam ran in right when the weapon pierced your gut, "no!"

You looked towards Sam, the tears slipping past your eyes.

You let a smirk fall on your lips, "tell him he's going to miss me when i'm gone..."

Sam looked towards Dean and he shook his head, twisting the knife quickly.

The pain was excruciating, nothing has ever even compared to the pain you were feeling now.

Your dammed soul left the dead vessel, the meat suit falling to the floor.

Sam let out a cry and turned to Dean, walking briskly to Dean.

He pushed him roughly.

"She wasn't ruby!"

Dean pushed Sam back, "a demon is a demon!"

Sam pushed Dean again, "Castiel broke the devil's trap and she stayed Dean! She stayed!"

Sam let out another cry before pointing to the crack in the roof.

"SHE STAYED!"

Dean stood there, stunned.

Sam nodded, "ya. How does it feel?"

Sam turned, walking back to the car and sitting down, slamming the car door behind him.

Dean stood still before gulping.

"Idiot..." He closed his eyes slowly, "you're such a idiot!"

"WHY DIDN'T YOU LEAVE?!"

He walked to his car slowly before sitting in the drivers seat.

Castiel stayed in the back, his hands to his face, "i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry."

He kept on repeating the same words and Sam stared out the window, tears rolling down his cheeks.

Dean slammed his hand on the horn, "WHY DIDN'T SHE LEAVE!?"

Sam turned to Dean, surprised by his outburst.

Castiel looked up at Dean, his face stained with the hot liquid flowing from his eyes, "her loyalty....Her loyalty will always be with me..."

Dean started the car quickly, a scowl on his face, "god dammit!"

Castiel went back to sobbing, "i'm sorry...i'm sorry...i'm sorry..."

Dean rolled down his window, flipped open his lighter and threw it to the abandoned warehouse.

It lit up in flames and he raced down the streets, his vision blurry, his lips in a frown.

"Goodbye..." Castiel finished, looking back the warehouse, "Goodbye..."